His eye is on the sparrow

Why should I feel discouraged? Why should the shadows come? And why should my heart feel lonely and long for Heaven as home when Jesus is my portion? A constant friend is He. His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches over me.

Dear God, please forgive me. Teach me all over fore I have been taught all wrong.

Thank You

It's almost like I'm a stranger. As if I'm only on the outside looking in...on myself . Not myself. My therapist told me to stay true to myself because she loves who I am. She told me to cry when I wanted to cry and I did. She told me to laugh out loud when I wanted to laugh and I did; although I couldn't really find the joke at first. I told her I used to be a rapper...and that my sister always found me kind of funny (not as a rapper, lol). She LOVED those characteristics of who I used to be. She said she could picture this side of me, but wondered why it wasn't sitting infront of her.

I want to be a psychologist, and quite honestly, wouldn't mind if I didn't make top dollar (although maybe I should). She said for my information, you CAN make $65 thou doing psychology w/o having your own private practice, and if this is enough for you to live off of then I'm good to go. She thinks I'd make a great psychologist. And I will. I just hope no one else minds me going into that field.

She also told me she thinks I should write more in my blogs (lol --and so I am). Thank You.

Sad..

I used to be smart for a 9 year old. Now I'm just dumb for a 19 year old. Crazy (and not funny) how life works.

Look at each of yourselves.

Honestly, I don't think I'm the one they need to be worried about.

Gravity..

..is working against me. And gravity wants to bring me down. Miss my family so much. Don't even know who I am anymore.

Ever

NOT LOOKIN FORWARD TO NO DAY OF THE WEEK. EVER!

Langston Hughes Mother to Son

Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin',
And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

ps: I love this poem... and I like chocolate stuffed oreo's... but I need to hold on to those memories. Those are what make me okay. Today was an emotional day for the kidd... just can't stop crying. I'm so anxious for my family to come. ..whenever they decide to come.