mann..

my headache is back and my face is breaking out. under my eyes.

i'm sorry

but I wish I could just talk to her. I know she wouldn't be proud of me but I just really need to talk to her. I need her. Please

the first

Wishing a bunch of wishes that I wished didn't need to be wished. They call it braving the storm. Or at least something like that. But she said its called, "LIFE". I'd say it seems more like jail...if you asked me. But you not asking me. I woke up early today only to check my phone for you. Signed into my myspace to see if I received any messages from you. You were there...you called...but I didn't know what to say to you. I have so many things I want to say, but I can't..get. it. out. Do I miss you? I miss everybody. When will I see you? I can't say. I get GEEKED Upp when he calls. When I hear his voice messages. When he asks me questions from a conversation we had THREE weeks ago. I get GEEKED UP! He sets my heart on fire. I heard some lady sing that song in the hair salon one time; to her boyfriend. I tried to download it, but I couldn't find who sang it. I backtracked my life so far it's almost like I never lived. Like I'm being reborn again or something. And not in the Christian way. But it's cheaper to keep her...I guess. Her being Life; even though I don't know why we assume life is a girl ("life's a bitch"). aint it the truth.

whoa

7 days later. Amen.

starting over

not really. just starting over with the numbering of my blogs. haha. lol today was........also weird. learn something new everyday, too. could you love someone you don't trust? (question of the day...i guess). I'm not in love, I'm just curious. Without trust I don't think you could do many things. Smh..."brazy" (his voice). k goodnight

whos' counting?

today was weird... as hell. and could i have gotten any more phone calls? geesh, what happened to fun filled saturdays? lol (im exemped)

for the umteenth time

Missed a few days of blogging. They've actually been pretty okay. Today was okay too. Except a few minutes ago. Was very angry. Kind of wanted to cry I was so angry but fuck it cuz I'm still shooting stars. Lucky I don't got no blicky or I woulda been shooting more then stars. As I recall I know you loved to show off. But I never thought that you would take it this far. But what do I know... what do I know? Like really. Guess I don't know shit really. I know imma do me though. I know it's simple math. Shit is really just that simple. Made plenty of beds... so I'm laying, yeah I'm laying. But better believe I'm laying comfortably. AND preparing to buy a whole new bed set like... thas what my life lookin like. That was my little metaphor for today. I dont know what tomorrow's gonna bring. Maybe some whole new shit. Who really knows.

fiesty five

False friends are worse than open enemies. Point blank. Other than that, just listening to a lullaby. Today; almost worse than yesterday. One day at a time. Just really wish I could go home...even for a little while.

happy fourth

Laying in a bed that isn't mine. In a house that isn't a home. Watching a tv I can't watch freely. Eating a granola bar that isn't good for me. Writing down scholarships and scholarship qualifications from a website I dread going to. Ehhhhh....... all n all.......... don't call........ I'm doing fine.